Today was a big day it was the first time I have been able to take a picture of all three together since I have had them, I will post it hopefully tomorrow. They were so funny today, One would start crying then another and then the third as if they all knew the other was and they wanted the attention. The nurses laugh at me on days like this because they say I can just see it now once you get home. I can't wait to have that opportunity. I also tried feeding everyone myself the other day, I started at 2:30 and didn't finish until 4:15. Remember they eat every 3 hours so that is an hour in between before they eat again. They are going to have to get a little quicker at eating and I am going to need a couple of extra hands! I think with time they will get the hang of it though. And who cares as long as they are eating and happy!

It is funny as I am sitting at my desk it is covered with stuff from work, bills, letters that need to be mailed, lists of things to do and I realize that through the past couple of months the world has just kept on moving, nothing has stopped and although a lot has changed for us some things remain the same. I realize at some point I have to come out and face the rest of the world and what it brings. Since they have been in the hospital there have been few occassions when we have gotten out. It is hard to do anything and not feel guilty because you aren' there all the time. I hear people talking and laughing and I have asked myself will I ever be able to have a simple normal conversation again. Although I know the answer is yes it seems very hard right now.

One of my sisters sent me a card and it said in the midst of all the stress try to remember to laugh. It really does feel good and every once in a while smile while looking in the mirror.... now that will make you giggle because you'll feel so stupid doing it. She said it is something she invented. Well I guess I will have to try it. Maybe we should all try it.