I keep having to tell myself to be patient. I want everyone home today and that is out of my control. Everyone is doing good, just dropping their heart rates and some bad cases of reflux, but enough to keep them from coming home right now. It is a bit frustrating to see your 4 month olds in bouncy seats at the hospital. Do not misunderstand I am thrilled they are doing so well and we are so blessed to have come this far and I know they will be home soon but today i am feeling impatient. I guess since I am spending so much time with Ransom I am feeling guilty am not able to do the same. I can't hold them and rock them and feed them all day long. Many say that will come and then it will be crazy, I say let the craziness begin.
From one of my devotionals....
God moves in his timing not yours. He is never late but he is usually not early either. He is often the God of the midnight hour. He sometimes waits until the last second before he gives you what you need. Before he intervenes on your behalf, he has to be sure that you are not going to take matters into your own hands and do something out of his perfect timing.
You must learn to trust god's timing. But first your self will and your spirit of independence must be broken so that God is free to work His will in your life and your circumstances. If you are waiting for something, set aside your own timetable tonight Trust God and believe that while you are waiting for your breakthrough, He is doing good work in you for his purpose.
Today I will try to be patient and wait for God to let them come home when he thinks they are ready not when I think they are ready. Even though right now that is very hard...it seems to be the best plan.