Yesterday I was in the NICU and I stepped out for some lunch when I returned it was closed. Usually when it is closed it means that they are having babies admitted or they have some sick babies at that time. Sometimes they will be closed for a couple of minutes or sometimes for a couple of hours. I decided to wait to see if they would open up when a few people came walking out looking a little stunned. I watched them as they came out into the hall and they began to cry. I could not help but over hear as one said into her phone the babies have come early and they are in the NICU.

As I stood there I was thrown back a few weeks in time and feelings of fear and anxiety overwhelmed me. I spoke to the woman saying I know you don't know me and it is really none of my business but I want you to know that I know exactly how you feel and as I told her about how we had been there for six weeks starting out at 2 lbs and now we are 4.5, 3.9 and 3.6 I suddenly realized how far we have to go, but how far we have come and how blessed we have been. I told her to tell her daughter that those babies are fighters and they will be fine and that even though it is hard you just keep putting one foot in front of the other.

Telling her about my boys I thought about how there were days when all I could do was keep moving and no longer did I have those feelings of fear but feelings of happiness for what God has done for my boys and for my family. I told her How I would be thinking of them and would keep them in my prayers, because I knew that I had only come so far because of God and the prayers of our friends, family and people we didn't know that had carried us this far.

I know most people have heard the story about the footprints in the sand, just in case you haven't. ....A man was looking back at his life and noticed that there were times when there were two sets of foot prints those of his and those of God's. Then he noticed that there were times when there were only one set of footprints and he noticed that it was during the hardest times in his life when this was so, he asked God why did you leave me when I needed you most and God responded I did not leave you I was carrying you......

I hope that I was of some comfort to that family and I hope that their babies do well...Everyday every baby in the NICU gets a little stronger and one day closer to coming home. I can't wait for our day and to have the chance to introduce my sons (WOW I have four sons!!!!) to each of you.